Everyone gets overwhelmed. The fact is it's a fact of life. There's not much you can do to prevent it from happening. But in PTSD Land, it can be overwhelming all the time. I still have not figured out how to prevent it because it always feels like I'm blindsided by it. One day I wake up and BAM a pile of crap that I have to deal with and I just want to stop time for a bit.
I have been horribly overwhelmed and it's been 100% emotional. My husband has been moody and I've hit a point where I just don't know what else I can do. I feel like I have done everything possible for him. I have changed careers, I have bent over backwards to accommodate him and have asked my different employers to do that too. But nothing I do is ever right. Even when it's something he asked of me.
These past few weeks, I have watched him be angry at me for things that he initiated, asked for, or demanded. I'm left feeling defeated and unsure of how to make it better. I'm a failure not matter what I do to him. It's a lose/lose situation for me.
My mind has hazed over and I have started to feel apathetic towards things. Not because I don't want to care, but because I have too many things to care about at once. And the frustration and anger I feel towards the situation feels like it's always precariously under the surface and about to bust through at any moment.
I find it very hard to not tell my co-workers that their problems are petty, that their fights amongst themselves are stupid and that they don't know what real trouble is. But I know it's not fair to feel that way. I know I can't place my feelings and my situation on someone else. I need to be sensitive, but I can't. All I can feel is frustration and anger and a feeling of utter hopelessness that I'll ever be able to cope.
But I will survive this just as I have in the past. I know it's temporary. I'll be ok.