Do you ever have days where you just feel like something is
missing? Something completely intangible is just not there, but you can’t put a
finger of what it might be?
I tend to have this feeling when I’m really productive at
home. I’ll wake up and get moving right
away and get a lot of stuff done and suddenly, I’m sitting on my couch unsure
of what is missing from my life.
I’ve always had the vague feeling that my never ending To-do
list, to which I add more things daily, is what gives me a sense of
purpose. Constantly feeling like I’m
busy and have a million things to do seems to distract me from this odd feeling
of intangible emptiness.
It’s possible I fill my days with miscellaneous tasks to
keep from feeling lonely or sad, or it’s possible that I truly lack the ability
to have time not filled with something (which is what my friends accuse me
of). Either way, when that To-Do list
gets too short, I find myself sitting alone in my house wondering what this
strange feeling is, and more importantly how to make it go away.
Usually, I just toss a few more random items on my list and
find something to keep busy doing.
I wonder if I’ll ever really understand what this feeling
is.
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