It’s always been an interesting phenomenon, the idea of no
one to turn to. It’s amazing how often
we hear that from someone we love.
Someone we want to think would have wanted to trust in us. But how often do you feel that yourself?
I feel alone all the time.
Right now in fact. While basking
in the glow of an amazing triumph in my life, I’m feeling very alone. Alone because all those people who said they
would be there, who never were, have suddenly come out of the woodwork. Suddenly they want to talk to me and be there
for me. But where were they when I was
trying to get to where I am at now? Your guess is as good as mine.
And now I find myself sitting here, alone, with a heavy
heart. In spite of this major triumph, I
have a mind that is weighed down with thoughts of loneliness. It’s the kind of loneliness I imagine success
must usually bring. Because while
everyone wants to pat you on the back when you win, who is going to be there to
hug you and offer a hand to pick you back up when you lose?
That is the spot I’m in.
Looking into the faces of those who have used me over the years as
shoulder to cry one, a hand to hold, a friend to talk to, but who have all
failed to be there when I needed those things.
People seem so quick to use up what you have to offer, and offer nothing
in return. And they are beyond quick to
join in your limelight, to share in your glory, but want nothing to do with
getting you there.
I’m feeling tired of having no one to turn to. I have few people in my life that I would
consider a true friend, let alone people I would actually trust to be there for
me. I have few people that I feel I can
turn to when I need a shoulder to lean on.
When the world feels like it’s too much to bear, who is
going to be the person to help you remember that you are not alone? I don’t
know that I have anyone in my life that I truly feel that way about.
I guess that is really the definition of “no one to turn
to.”
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I'm always here, for what it's worth. <3
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